"I feel my actions are destroying me, deep down below the shallow life I lead. The pain is mine to keep and call my own, I'll carry it until i'm gone."

At the moment I'm listening to "My only - Goodnight Nurse".

My parents are playing "Happy Family" at the moment with some of my dads mates. These people have a typical neuclear family and my parents are trying to fit in and pretending to be something they're clearly not! And worst of all, they're trying to get me to be involved and to be social.

Fuck this. It is fucking disgusting.