"You told me that the daylight burns you and that the sunrise was enough to kill you. I said maybe you're a vampire. You said it's quite possible, I feel truly dead inside."

At the moment i'm listening to "Trouble breathing - Alkaline Trio". I haven't been eating much lately. I'm just not hungry, i'm really not. And when i try to eat... my body rejects it and sometimes i throw up ... or just feel ill. My mum's worried about me. I hate it when she worries, she should just take care of herself. She needs to be more worried about her and less about me. I'm fine.

Trouble breathing - Alkaline Trio

"You told me that you want to die.
I said I've been there myself more than a few times.
And I go back every once in a while.
You called me lucky, you...
You called me lucky.

You said tonight is a wonderful night to die.
I asked you could tell, you told me to look at the sky.
Look at all those stars, look at how goddamn ugly the stars are.

It's one or another.
Between a rope and a bottle.
I can tell you're having trouble breathing,
'Cause you'll never be o.k. (you'll never be o.k.)
You'll always be in pain.
You'll always feel this way.
'Cause things they never work out right (the wrong way, the lonely way).
You'll always be in pain.

You told me that the daylight burns you
And that the sunrise was enough to kill you.
I said maybe you're a vampire.
You said it's quite possible, I feel truly dead inside.

It's one or another.
Between a rope and a bottle.
I can tell you're having trouble breathing,
'Cause you'll never be o.k. (you'll never be o.k.)
You'll always be in pain.
You'll always feel this way.
Cause things they never work out right (the wrong way, the lonely way).
You'll always be in pain.

Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out.
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out.
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out."

Is it bad that i really enjoy listening to suicidal songs? Don't get me wrong. I'm not going to die. I don't see the point, and i have too much to live for. I just, for some reason, really enjoy listening to suicidal songs.
:/