"These fancy things, will never come in between, you're part of my entity, here for infinity. When the war has took it's part, when the world has dealt it's cards, If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart. Because, When the sun shines, we'll shine together. Told you I'll be here forever, said I'll always be a friend. Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end. Now that it's raining more than ever, know that we'll still have each other. You can stand under my umbrella. You can stand under my umbrella."

At the moment I'm listening to "Umbrella (Cover) - Boyce Avenue".
I've had a pretty good day. Many events happened and all of them made me smile. Firstly I found out that I got accepted into University, and even better news is that I got into the course I really wanted to get into! :) YAY!

I got into a Bachelor of Arts (Psychology) course which is pretty exciting!

And also, later on in the day I went to dinner and the movies with some mates! It was lovely.

What a great day (:

"The scars of your love remind me of us, they keep me thinking that we almost had it all. The scars of your love, they leave me breathless, I can't help feeling that we could have had it all."

At the moment I'm listening to "Rolling in the deep (Cover) - Go Radio!".
According to Wikipedia:
"Trichotillomania, which is classified as an impulse control disorder by DSM-IV, is the compulsive urge to pull out one's own hair leading to noticeable hair loss, distress, and social or functional impairment, and in some cases one may even consume the hair."
... I think I may have a VERY mild case of this. I seem to be, and have been, addicted to pulling out my hair! It's been going on for quite a while, I've just never really noticed it until it began to get worse this last couple of weeks. Odd yeah? Also according to Wikipedia, one of the possible causes for this is depression and anxiety. I suffer both of those... So that may very well be the cause. I hope it doesn't get too bad. :/

..but anyways, I'm currently at my dads house where he is fixing my car. It's looking pretty good at the moment and I'm SO thankful that he knows what he's doing! Yaaaaay! :)

"And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic. But when I say let's keep in touch, I really mean I wish that you'd grow up. This is the first song for your mixtape. It's short just like your temper, but somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend before you got too cool..."

At the moment I'm listening to "Mixtape - Brand New".
Tonight was pretty wondeful. I went to the city with some really close mates and enjoyed every moment of it. However, the person who I mentioned in my previous post was there. For me, things were pretty awkward. But not for him however. I was kind of a little glad when we caught his train and left us. I was sad to see him go, because I don't get to see him that often, but I was also pretty relieved. I was relieved because I actually thought I was going to cry for screwing up to bad the other night.

I managed to contain myself, however, and had a good night in the end. But... I guess it still plays on my mind quite often. Which is gay.

Hope you're having a swell night. (:

"All I did was love you, now I hate the nightmare you've become. I can't let you fool me, I won't need you again. I watched you let yourself die, now it's too late to save you this time. You bury me alive, and everybody's gotta breathe somehow. Don't leave me to die, too consumed by your own emptiness and lies."

At the moment I'm listening to "Bury me alive - We are the fallen".
I made a pretty big mistake last night. So, I've had this crush on this guy I have known for over a year now. It has been an on-and-off crush for the amount of time I have known him. I met him through a friend and he was the first person (who is also gay) that I came out to. Overall, he as been such an amazing friend and inspiration to me. He has helped me become the person I am today. And this "crush" that I had for him was completely secret. He did not know a thing.

Anyways, last night he was telling me about this time he and his mate had some "fun" and the way he said it, to me, sounded like he was trying to hint to me that he wanted to "experiment", because he is fairly tame with his sexual experience, and don't know who to "experiment" with. So, as the dickhead I am, I bluntly told him that he could experiment with me if he ever wanted to.

He immediately changed the subject and I kept pushing him to find out an answer. It ended up being really awkward and now I guess I just feel like crap. :/ We are still friends and everything. But nothing will be the way that it used to be. I feel really embarrassed, ashamed, awkward, confused and sad.

Fun night.

"We've been falling for all this time and now I'm lost in paradise. Alone, and lost in paradise."

At the moment I'm listening to "Lost in Paradise - Evanescence".
I'm not really sure whether I like Evanescence's new album or not!? I think you just cannot beat their old stuff. Their old music was absolutely beautiful!

And some good news is I've started downloading movies :D ... well, I guess that's good news for me, not production companies... But still, I think it's awesome :)

And even better news is my youth allowance got accepted and I woke up today with an unexpected $250 in my account. Apparently they will be doing this every fortnight, which is fucking awesome because that means I don't need to cancel my gym membership to pay for my car and all the damage! :)

So, I'm in a pretty swell mood at the moment, which is kind of silly because It was the money in my account that brightened my mood. I hate to say this, but money I guess can make you happy. :|

The world is fucking ridiculous! I don't like it. :\

"She sits in her corner, singing herself to sleep. Wrapped in all of the promises that no one seems to keep. She no longer cries to herself, no tears left to wash away, just diaries of empty pages. Feelings gone astray, but she will sing 'till everything burns, while everyone screams, burning their lies, burning my dreams. All of this hate, and all of this pain, I'll burn it all down as my anger reigns, 'Till everything burns."

At the moment I am listening to "Everything Burns - Anastacia ft. Ben Moody".
I think I may have a little crush on this guy. He's really cute, awesome personality and understands that life can sometimes not be as beautiful as you want it to be. I really don't want to rush into anything at the moment and I especially don't want to make the same mistakes as I did previously.

I really hope things work out well. :) That would be really special, almost like magic.

"There’s a place that I’ve found as far as I can see. This place lies within the depths of my dreams. In a garden surrounded by fire and trees, through the smoke, a silhouette, I can barely see. There’s a man with an axe, standing in the rain. Looked me straight in the eyes, this is what he had to say: Never fall asleep, you won’t wake up. Destroy the guillotine, before he does."

At the moment I'mn listening to "My Apocalypse - Escape the Fate".
Welcome to 2012! This is my first post of the year, which is pretty exciting...Not really, I just get excited by the minor things in life. Which is better than being sad I guess.

Speaking of sad, I'm not feeling that sad anymore. I guess I just needed to cut. It actually did make me feel a whole lot better. Hopefully this year will have its ups and downs, but let's hope the downs are not that bad and the ups are terrific.

Bring on this change of lifestyle. First on the agenda, find a job to earn enough money to pay for my car.