"When the one thing you're looking for is nowhere to be found, and you back stepping all of your moves trying to figure it out. You wanna reach out, you wanna give in, your head's wrapped around what's around the next bend. You wish you could find something warm 'cause you're shivering cold. It's the first thing you see as you open your eyes, the last thing you say as your saying goodbye. Something inside you is crying and driving you on."

At the moment I'm listening to "Something Inside - Jonathan Rhys Meyers".
Welcome to 2013. I have no idea what it is this week, but I have been pretty down, most of the time for no reason at all. I don't believe it had anything whatsoever to do with the fact that I quit smoking, or am desperately trying to lose weight, or even the fact that my parents are still both unemployed and are annoying the shit out of me.

I weighed in today at 104.0kgs. I want to lose 20kgs before my birthday, and when I reach my goal weight of 85kgs, I will reward myself with another tattoo!

Apart from this, I just want to stay in bed, all day, and all night, and not talk to anyone, or not see anyone for a while until I feel better. I know dealing with me is hard for all of you guys reading this, but I appreciate the support, and sorry if we haven't caught up in a while.