"I've got a feeling, that tonights gonna be a good night"

At the moment I'm listening to "Gotta feeling - The Black Eyed Peas". I am unbelievably happy! I've found myself the right guy and I am now 18!!! I got my licence and have been driving ever since my birthday!! It is really fun!

It seriously is amazing being 18, I can legally buy cigarettes, drink, drive, do ANYTHING!
I'm also VERY excited for my party, it's a dress up theme and I think the photos and good company of friends will be heaven.
Looking forward to the memories and the many memories to come!
<3

"I’m lookin’ for a complication. Lookin’ ‘cause I’m tired of lyin’. Make my way back home when I learn to fly high."

At the moment I'm listening to "Learn to Fly - The Foo Fighters".
I've had a pretty amazing couple of weeks! I met someone amazing and hopefully it is goin to progress from here! I've been talking to all my mates, found out some interesting stories, helped them all out and felt a mixture of good and confused on the inside... I don't know why I'm feeling confused... But hopefully it's a good thing.

My car arrived the other day.. I've decided to call her 'Esmerelda', she looks beautiful! And I'll be 18 in 4 days!! So hopefully I get my licence!

Then I will be completely free!!

... Until I run out of petrol.. :/

"Lighting fireworks in parking lots, illuminate the blackest nights. Cherry cokes under this moonlit summer sky."

At the moment I'm listening to "In this Diary - The Ataris".

I am feeling something inside of me that hasn't been felt in a long long time. This feeling is quite a warm and fuzzy feeling, but I'm also consciously aware of this feeling and trying my hardest not to get carried away with it.... But I am LOVING IT! This feeling goes by many names, some call it 'A mixture between pain and pleasure', others call it 'a soul’s recognition of its counterpoint in another'. I'm scared to say so, because I'm trying to be cautious, but i like to call this feeling "Love".

On Monday I believe i just had the best day of my life. It consisted of holding hands, kissing and talking. All the things I ever wanted. Nothing more, nothing less.

Loving life. <3

"I heard you crying loud, all the way across town. You've been searching for that someone, and it's me out on the prow. As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself. Well, don't get lonely now, And dry your whining eyes. I'm just roaming for the moment, Sleazin' my back yard so don't get so uptight. You been thinking about ditching me."

At the moment im listening to "When I come around - Green Day". I'm kinda confused and indecisive.

But I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY looking forward to Monday!! This weekend is going to be good aswell!

<3

"Yes, your motives are tasteless but your mouth is so bittersweet. When my worst fears surround me I'll just wait for you, to sweep me right off my feet."

At the moment I'm listening to "Don't let this be the end - New Found Glory". I'm feeling super great today, smiling as always. I made a secret list of all the things I want to achieve in the near future today. I'm looking forward to keeping those promises.

One of my mates was meant to join me in the city tomorrow and I'm a little disappointed because he cancelled on me for the 4th time this week. I kinda had a thing for him but now I'm realizing that I really don't, I like guys who miss me, guys who want to spend time with me, guys who would take time out of there own life to see me, guys who TEXT ME FIRST! I'm noticing that this guy really isn't right for me, I'm just going to stay fiends with him.

I am a little excited however, because this one guy who i have been staring at for a while has finally noticed me and stated that i "am the sexiest person he knows". Whether this is the truth or not, I will never know, but it's fun to pretend. So that made me happy. :) I'm looking forward to gettin to know him, but I also know that I need to take things slow of course :)

Schools almost over for the term! And then HOLIDAYS!!! yay!!! I turn 18 in 20 days and I'm really looking forward to the freedom and the car! Loving life! :D

"Creating what we see, convincing us with fear. We are the ones who say, what they refuse to hear."

At the moment I'm listenin to "Now, the hard part - City Escape". I'm feeling great!!
It's a good feeling when you're helping your mates get better, you feel, aswell as making them feel, a great sense of self-worth. I also love it how me and my mum are bonding so much, it feels really good! Life is once again stable and looking up!

<3

"Give me a reason to care, and I'll sing along forever".

At the moment I'm listening to "Sing along forever - The Bouncing Souls". It's funny how life goes. Just before I was talking to this guy who has moved house or got kicked out of his house (I'm not sure which one) and lived my himself, no income, no school, nothing. It's his 18th birthday tomorrow, but what shocked me the most is, how happy he actually is. The decision of him constantly Swapping houses around victoria and enjoying the freedom is amazing! People like him make me realize that, if he can do it, I can. I can make it.

In other news, I'm really not sure how things are going with someone else. I have the feeling like I'm really missing someone, even though they're not mine. I can't stop thinking about him, even though I don't want to think about him. I don't want to be in a relationship, but I also miss the flirting and the cutness. I also feel like, with this guy, I text him too much, and I really don't want him to think I'm some stalker or something
... So what I've done is not text him at all... Waiting for him to text me. Waiting. Waiting...